805. The last post of 2011.

So the title says it all. It's gonna be a new year in 3hrs 21mins. Real quick, don't you think? :/ I'm really hungry. That was random, I just haven't had anything since brunch at 11am. :(

So this post will be about 2011. Obviously. Sure, I've been through a lot and I have a lot to say, but I guess I'm just gonna blog whatever comes to my mind. And this is prolly gonna be a post filled with emotions and all, gonna work on my blogskin after this. ;)

I started 2011 with a positive mindset, which slowly slipped and half of me became a pessimist. Went through a lot of drama, Valentine's Day was lovely though. :') I messed up a lot in terms of my academics, as usual. I didn't do my best in everything and maybe that's one of the regrets I'm gonna leave this year with. But 2012's just ahead of me, no? :)

The part that affected my life the most this year, even though it shouldn't, was pretty much issues with guys and all, y' know, relationships... So, uhm, my relationship with S ended in September (don't ask me why I'm typing this, I just feel like it k?) even though we starting drifting apart in July, when I got closer to Jon.. Perhaps the drama from my relationship was what messed me up, I don't know. But I know very well that the drama at school screwed up my life a lot. My relationship with S caused me to drift apart from many, and for that, I'm really sorry. :( Time wasted I guess, and I simply couldn't focus on my studies.

Eventually I became a really temperamental person and I slowly started hating myself. I don't remember mentioning this before, but there was a period of time when I was at my lowest, and every second awake seemed to be a struggle, no kidding. I suppose that was when I simply caged myself in my own little world and didn't talk to many about how I felt, except a couple of people.. And for those who were there, thank you. :')

I suppose that was when Jon came along and in a way, saved me from my little hellhole of self-despair and agony. I don't know if it was mere pity that drew him to me, but the way he described how he felt the first few times we talked, it seemed that way. And we got together in October. :) Almost 3 months with him. It's not long, but still.....

'Nuff about Jon, I think my readers are tired of him. :P I admit, I did really badly for my end-year exams. I got one A, one B, and six C's. Yup, I'm that lousy and all. Go ahead and judge me, ok can. ^^ But I wasn't last in class, pretty impossible, huh.. Spent my whole November with Jon and Jon alone, and he departed on the last day of November. I promised myself to start on revision and homework after that, but I guess I never got down to it because I felt so torn apart and all. Made use of December and bonded with my dearer girl friends. :) Really love 'em all! I know Sherlyn and Shermaine will see this! HELLO.
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And to end off, I spent my New Year's eve with Kenneth Teh. :) We planned to do work, but he showed up empty-handed without any homework on him, after making me wait for almost two whole hours. Naturally, our attempt to get work done failed terribly, so I'll have to stay up for the next two days and half-complete my work. And I'm not gonna touch my Combined Humanities homework, yay me? :/

We eventually spent late the afternoon talking till in the evening, caught up and all, even though I didn't know how to bring across everything that he missed out on since the last time we talked, and when I told him just about everything.. But that's alright, he'll always be my good friend and little brother. :)

So yup, Happy New Year's Eve to y' all! :) Please be happy people, and work hard for O's and all. ^^ Don't go into the toilet at 11:59pm and come out only next year. That was pretty lame, but I'm gonna go edit the look of my blog now, bye! :)

Oh, and, see y' all next year! :)
I actually mean 'later'. 8)